A Life of Freedom Before Children

Before having children, my husband and I lived a life full of fun and pleasure. We traveled when we wanted, enjoyed good food and drinks, went camping and on trips with friends, went to concerts, and lived life to the fullest. I enjoyed life, and when I felt like I needed to recharge my batteries, I would rest. I made time and space for self-care practices that renewed me and kept me grounded so I could continue to savor life. We waited over a decade to have children, so when the time came, I felt ready to buckle down and get serious. I was ready for change, but nothing could have prepared me for the chaos of motherhood.

“I was ready for change, but nothing could have prepared me for the chaos of motherhood.”

The Birth of My Son: A Shift in Focus

When my first baby was born in 2020, everything changed. My whole life centered around my son; his well-being was essential to every decision I made. I put all my wants and needs on the back burner to focus on being the best mother possible, and in the process, I lost myself in motherhood. It happened slowly over time, and I didn’t notice that it was happening at all. But I learned day by day and fell in love with this tiny human. He brought (and still does) an abundance of joy, fun, and playfulness into my life. Despite the challenges, we found our groove, and I embraced the new woman I was becoming.

A Spiritual Awakening and the Forgotten Truth

Back in 2012, I experienced a spiritual awakening that cracked my heart wide open. This experience gave me a deep understanding of pure, unconditional, Divine love. It changed everything about how I perceived reality, and I knew, without a doubt, that I was supported by love. But as time went on, life returned to its usual routine, and I slowly started to forget—spiritual amnesia of sorts.

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