The Hidden World Within: Growing Up Spiritually Sensitive

What was it like growing up aware of Spirit—but feeling like you had to hide it?

It was overwhelming, honestly. Imagine being a little kid who could feel things—energies, presences—and not having any clue why. My heart would race. My body would respond, but I couldn’t see anything. I just knew something was there. Which made me scared.

Growing up in a Christian household made things even trickier. My family only believed in God, angels, and demons, so when I started having these experiences, the only conclusion I could draw was that something was wrong with me—or that I was being influenced by something negative. I never talked about it. I kept it close.

People would say I was super intuitive—”spot on,” even—but I never shared the real reason why.

I just knew things. I could feel if someone was lying, or if something bad was about to happen. But I kept my mouth shut about the spirit part. I didn’t want to be labeled crazy. And back then, there was no internet.

No Google. No online communities. It was just me trying to make sense of something I didn’t understand.

And that silence? It stayed with me for years.

Breaking the Silence: Choosing to Embrace My Gifts

What did it feel like to deny that part of yourself for so long?

It felt like I was living a half-life. As though I was walking around in someone else’s body. I always felt like I was holding something in—something big. Hiding something so integral to who you are chips away at your self-worth.

I constantly felt like an outsider. Like no one really knew me. And when you feel unseen, it’s hard to ever feel truly loved. I carried that for a long time.

When did you finally decide to stop hiding?

It all came to a head during my divorce. My life was falling apart in so many ways, and my abilities were intensifying. I couldn’t push them down anymore. A friend introduced me to a Reiki master, and that session changed everything. It cracked something open in me.

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